I need another sale!

The pressure is back already. I need another sale. I thought that the way to get sales was to steer the customer through the screens but that hasn't worked for the past 2 days. I need something more. My product knowledge is increasing day by day and I think that I'm going to ask the supervisor for help tomorrow. maybe she can sit with us and let us hear her or , maybe, it would be better if she corrected us. I don't know.

I need another sale!

What's Happening

My job has improved !00% with my first sale. I've learned to carry the caller along with the screens. That's the way to make the sales. Even though I've only gotten 1 sale so far, I came close a bunch of times.

I've also started this new program at the Empowerment Center to work on my soft skills. My behavior could use some refining and this is part of what is taught here. The instructor is a very nice lady named Felicia Rall. I admire and appreciate her manner of dealing with us .

They are also offering me an opportunity to work on my typing and computer skills. Soon, I'll be able to type at a speed that might just get me hired somewhere.

Moving Along

Well, Ive started my new job. Like most things, it's kind of tough. I don't really have the 'gift of gab' so it's hard for me to keep the flow going on my sales callls. I'm getting better and when I take the time to think of exactly what to say, I come up with a pretty good pitch.

PROES has ended and that class was really a blessing. Through it, I met a wonderful life coach who is helping me to make sense of my life. He helps me to confront the past and put it behind me while at the same time reach towards a future.

And the day came when it bwecame more painful to stay tight in the flower bud than the pain of the risk it took to blossom.

Job #1

I got a job today. I am so excited. Grateful too. It is at Power Direct, that same company that didn't hire me before. I have to give credit to PROES, because it's due to them that my self presentation has improved so much.

There is a two week training period for my position and I'm looking forward to learning all I can. The job pays $7.60 per/hr. We work six and one-half hours per day, from 4p.m. through 10:30p.m. Those are good hours for me. I'll drop Brett off in the morning, go back home; return to pick up Brett in the evening, then go to work myself. Brett will pick me up at 10:30.

I'm really looking forward to coming back into the mainstream. I guess my recovery is finally taking hold.

Afraid

I am learning how to edit, organize and send pictures today. It's fun, kinda hard.



I'm scared to death of what my future holds. So scared I don't want to talk about it.

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Moving along slowly

I still do not have the money for my CE units or my license renewal but I've got an interview next Friday. I also have an interview tomorrow for a customer service job. I've got a good resume so maybe they'll hire me and I can pay for them myself.

A Sign

I'm thinking about taking a detour from the nursing knot. Posted at Employment Connection is a sign that talks about training for telephone sales. i think I'll see what that's all about while I try to work out my license problems.

Monday morning.

God, I am so tired. I didn't sleep at all last night. I've noticed that this happens most weekend nights. I made a concentrated effort not to sleep during the day at all but it didn't help. Part of it I'm sure is stress. I was up all night, loading my resume into various job search engines even though I don't have my license yet.. Brett was invaluable with assistance and advice. I messed up a little bit. I took the exams for two of my required courses too early. Since I took them before March 1st, I can't use them for the next renewal period. I knew this but I grew so impatient that I did it anyway. Lack of impulse control, a big problem in my life.

I'm waffling on the total truth thing. I never knew I was such a liar but I can hardly get through an application without making something up. Everybody keeps telling me to tell the truth but it's so ugly. I can't find anything good about myself to communicate.

Nursing Law

I've been reading the Nurse Practice Act and the requirements for renewal listed on the back of the application. The OBN requires that I report my criminal history to them and hold myself up for disciplinary action. I've been thinking all week about how to avoid this but I don't think I'll even try. I'm going to be honest with them (within reason) and let the chips fall where they may. I'll survive. I think I'm finally moving forward.

PROES

I started the PROES program yesterday. It is an ex-offender reentry program. I am enrolled in the ARRIVE component-Access to Re-entry Resources Increases Viable Employment. It's really pretty nice. It's run by three ex-convicts who have all obtained advanced degrees. Federally funded it maintains a strong support services department. Already, they've given me a ten dollar gas card with more to come. The program offers help with interview clothing and transportation. They also offer employers five hundred dollars per person if they will agree to hire you.

The class is a mix of rowdy ex-cons, thugs and people who are trying to be more than they currently are. Our sessions are filled with laughter, argument and thoughtfully given (though sometimes inappropriate) comment.
Their purpose is to challenge and to help us confront our own criminality. Until our thinking and therefore our behavior changes we will continue to be the drain on society that we have inadvertently become. Mainstreaming us is the goal. I heartily embrace it.

Just a regular day.

Not much happening on the homefront today. I decided to torment Brett all day because he didn't get me a card for Valentines day. I took a couple of those CE courses and passed them pretty easily but I got panicked again when I saw the word 'unhirable' on someone else's blog.

Happy Valentine's Day

Brett decided not to celebrate V-day. Not even a card.

Here's Hoping

I received the packet from the Board of Nursing yesterday. It contained a list of the courses with their web addresses that are required for reinstatement. I looked over a couple of the courses last night and they are heavy-duty. Lots of reading and memorizing. I can't reapply until after March 1, so that gives me time to learn what I need to know.

About Brett.

Brett is really depressed. He either sleeps or lays around all day. He barely eats, I have to do a whole song and dance to get him to pay attention to his meals. He won't take his medicine properly and he can hardly string two words together (paucity of thought). He went to the doctor about a week ago and was given Neurontin for his anxiety. I think it's helped, he's less irritable and has stopped asking, "what's going to happen to me ?". He was also prescribed Seroquel to help his depression and reported insomnia but he declined to get it saying it was too expensive. It was $10. He's still using the internet excessively but is not spending much time on his porno sites. He says that he doesn't enjoy anything. He has marked bradykinesia and his personal hygiene standards have slipped.

I wish that I could help him. I can remember when I was so depressed that I couldn't get out of bed, so I know how he feels. You have to admire him because he goes to work no matter how he feels. I hope that he gets over this soon because we never do anything fun anymore and that's really dragging me down.

Strike 1!

I guess I didn't need to worry about which option to choose. Power Direct didn't hire me. The interviewer said that my 2006 conviction was too recent to overlook. Bummer. But I knew that before I went. I still hoped, I don't know why.

The only good thing about them turning me down was that it reinforced my awareness of the need to take care of that Weed and Seed conviction. I think my boyfriend realizes it, too. He'll probably give me the money that I need to take care of it now. I hate that I have to strip him of resources to get myself back on my feet but if I don't, I'll be a drag on him forever. I feel horribly guilty about him. Consequences again.