I'm 49 years old today and I have to restart my entire life. I have no job, no money, no education,no looks, no husband, no friends and no children(details later). I have a criminal history and a bad credit report. But I also have a boyfriend who loves me and I believe that he deserves a better life. So I've decided to reinvent myself.I had very few defenses against the hurts that one's inner and outer worlds can inflict and so I made a lot of mistakes. I think this reinvention will be quite difficult because I'm rather old and I've absorbed a lot of damage over the years. Nonetheless, I am determined to move my life in a positive direction, in a word, to grow.